A Slow Burn.

I had never heard of Francois Fenelon (1651- 1715) until last week. He was an archbishop in the Catholic Church. I came across a letter he had written to a close friend. I immediately related to its content. For years I used to wonder why God didn’t make me good/perfect as soon as I gave my life to him. I thought my obedience was important to God and I wanted to be good/perfect, so why wouldn’t he do it?

Eventually, I learned from the Bible that our growth in Christ is a slow growth. Jesus said,First a leaf blade pushes through, then the heads of wheat are formed, and finally the grain ripens.”  Mark 4:26

 I concluded that perfect obedience was not as important to God as it was to me. Or, perfect obedience must come through learning and learning takes time.  

I think the reason I wanted to be perfect is so I could be sure of going to heaven. I thought if I sinned I might not be able to go. I had a lot to learn about God and Salvation.

Here is the letter:

“Do you wonder why God has to make it so hard on you? Why doesn’t He make you good without making you miserable in the meantime? Of course He could, but He does not choose to do so. He wants you to grow a little at a time and not burst into instant maturity. This is what He has decided and you can only adore His wisdom— even when you don’t understand it.

I am awed by what suffering can produce. You and I are nothing without the cross. I agonize and cry when the cross is working within me, but when it is over I look back in admiration for what God has accomplished. Of course I am then ashamed that I bore it so poorly. I have learned so much from my foolish reactions.

You yourself must endure the painful process of change. There is much more at work here than your instant maturity. God wants to build a relationship with you that is based on faith and trust and not on glamorous miracles.

God uses the disappointments, disillusionments, and failures of your life to take your trust away from yourself and help you put your trust in Him. It is like being burned in a slow fire, but you would rather be burned up in a blaze of glory, wouldn’t you? How would this fast burn detach you from yourself? Thus God prepares events to detach you from yourself and from others.

God is your Father, do you think He would ever hurt you? He just cuts you off from those things you love in the wrong way. You cry like a baby when God removes something or someone from your life, but you would cry a lot more if you saw the eternal harm your wrong attachments cause you.

You do not see with the eyes of eternity. God knows everything. Nothing happens without His consent. You are upset by small losses, but do not see eternal gains! Don’t dwell on your suffering. Your over-sensitivity makes your trials worse. Abandon yourself to God.

Everything in you that is not already a part of the established kingdom of God needs the cross. When you accept the cross in love, His kingdom begins to come to life within you. You must bear the cross and be satisfied with what pleases God. You have need of the cross. The faithful Giver of every good gift gives the cross to you with His own hand. I pray you will come to see how blessed it is to be corrected for your own good.

My God, help us to see Jesus as our model in all suffering. You nailed Him to the cross for us. You made Him a man of sorrows to teach us how useful sorrow is. Give us a heart to turn our backs on ourselves and trust only in You.”

5 thoughts on “A Slow Burn.

    1. Yes. I’ve been very bad at suffering. Mainly getting angry at God. That is my default setting, and I know it is wrong and a waste of time and energy. But im still, even now, tempted to be angry about my suffering, my family’s suffering and the world’s suffering. It helps me to look at Jesus and some of the people in the Bible who suffered.

      I would say for me it was two books that helped me accept the fact of suffering. “The Problem of Pain,” by C.S. Lewis, and “Man’s Search for Meaning,” by Viktor Frankl. Philip Yancey has also written good books on that subject.

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      1. Well, I learned a good lesson in that when I cared for my abusive parents, that even in their suffering state or diminished mental capacity, they could still inflict so much pain. But, my sister and I got through it. We learned so much in that trial. About ourselves and each other. Even though it was grievous at the time, we saw it through. As Christians, we felt that no matter what, it was our God given obligation to do so and we came out stronger in the end. I know my brother still has “unfinished business” that will never be resolved because he didn’t go through this process. It wasn’t his fault that he wasn’t there, but still…

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        1. Yes, sometimes doing what is right can hurt very much. It was wonderful what you did. I guess the main thing I’ve learned through suffering is not to rely on myself or other people when I’m in mental pain. God alone can see me through. He is enough. I just keep talking and to him until I feel better.

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  1. “God uses the disappointments, disillusionments, and failures of your life to take your trust away from yourself and help you put your trust in Him.”

    That is so very true. Reminds me of the messages I’ve heard on the blessings of “brokenness”. Thanks for sharing!

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